Bi-Polar?

As I sat down to write a post, my mind was blank.  Typically I have a subject to write about, and can type a post quickly.  I have a few subjects going through my mind this week, but I can't seem to get them written down.  The most obvious subject this week should be Memorial Day, but after starting and re-starting several times, I decided to put that post on hold for now.

I have had a bi-polar week, some really big highs, and some really low lows.  For example, while working on the golf benefit the other night, I discovered a mistake I had made, and even though it was easily fixable, it put me into a tail spin.  I felt like my brain had a glitch that couldn't be fixed.  While talking to Dave, I couldn't finish a thought and I was putting one persons first name with another's last so Dave was confused as to who I was talking about, yet I was unable to correct what I was saying.  Was I losing my mind?  It frustrated me to the point of a breakdown. 

The following day, I felt as if I was in a fog, just getting through the day.  During my lunch break I got a call from Dave with news that a balloon pilot in town we had been speaking with had a cancelled rider for that evening, and would like to take one of us up with the Honor and Remember flag to remind people of what the Holiday weekend is really about.  My day just got better, but at the same time it made me think of all the generosity of people who didn't know Curtis or us, and made me cry again.  Once again, bi-polar! 

I'm sure that much of this is coming from the stress of so many things on my plate.  Concentration has been a problem over the last year, and I need to write everything, (I mean every thing!), down to get it done, so the list is very long, and overwhelming to me.  I'm not complaining, the benefit has been a good thing for Dave and I to focus on over the last 6 months, but stressful at a time when my mind just isn't working the same. 

Just like everything else, I will get through this because of all the generosity and good hearts out there thinking of me and helping me along the way. 

The balloon ride was amazing, thank you Mike.